My dear friend

His dedication got him no where but alone.

his life of a loner is by all appearances a good one.

No one knows the suffering and heartaches.

he puts on a brave front for all the world to see.

But inside he longs for one to hold and to love.

One who will wipe the tears when they fall

without judgment and say

"It's all right to cry"                                                         

He needs to feel those feelings again,

but the right one does not seem to be interested,

or available.

He longs for her to come into his life

and wreak havoc on the world he is comfortable with.

Make it all brand new. 

He longs for someone to just "be there"

When he walks in the door,

Someone who can smile and welcome him,

Without saying a word.

Someone who is OK with holding hands quietly in the dark.

Someone with whom he can speak freely and openly.

Someone who loves with no inhibitions.

He needs this someone to need him as much as he needs her.

And he needs to be able to take care and be taken care of.

If all the things in his life up to this point,

Were leading to where he is today,

Could he have done something differently,

That would have changed the present?

Would he have wanted it to do so?

Why does being alone have to feel SO ALONE?

He longs for that hand reaching out in the dark,

For reassurance that he is still there.

Feeling his heart beat faster when she looks at him

With that longing look that pleases him so much.

He longs to know she is there, even when she isn't.

He aches inside,

an ache so deep that words can never be

created to cover the feelings he feels.

An ache like a wound, that never heals.

True Love, the only ointment worth it's salt.

Tho I have no answers for his burning desires,

Or the feelings of need, want, longing,

I can offer friendship, a shoulder to lean on.

I have a lot of love and compassion for him.

I have a lot to offer him.

But I am not the answer he is looking for.